almost a week

OK, so it's been 6 days and it really hasn't been too tough to keep on track.  Not sure why.  I am hungry at times, but nothing has honestly tempted me to NOT eat correctly.  Why?  I really need to understand that.  Let's think.  I have read a new book about achieving a goal in 30 days.  THe book says first start with a SMART goal, specific, measurable, achievable, realistic and timely:
fit into my goal jeans that are on top of my dresser by making good choices with food and exercising in 90 days.  On January 31 I will have lsot 15 lbs and weigh 145 lbs by making good choices with food and exercising 5-7 days a week.

OK, so there is my SMART 30 day goal.  My long term goal as well.  The part of the 30 day goal says it is not only important to understand the WHAT (that being the goal) but also the HOW.  What steps to take to get to the goal each day.  The book suggests asking questions each day: 
             What can I do today to move me closer to my goal of...? 
             What can I do right now to move me closer to my goal of...?
He suggests 3 action items to be writter under each question.  And the biggest item is that these all need to be journaled, so I would like this to be my daily journal. 
What can I do TODAY to move me closer to my goal of 145lbs by January 31st? 

• go to sleep before 10pm
• drink a glass of water-done
• get clean bras out of the laundry room to ensure I can exercise tomorrow-done

What can I do RIGHT NOW to move me closer to my goal of 145lbs by January 31st?

• Take the pills that I bought a few days ago-prepared for tomorrow
• drink a glass of water-done
• stop typing to get to it-done

starting again, or should I say, continuing

Well, here we go again, or should I say let me continue with the struggle I have with my weight.  Consistently I worry about how I look and how my clothes look.  I always thought I could maintain about 150lbs, but now it looks like 160lbs.  Can you believe that?  10 lbs that have really been packed on almost unnoticed.  I can't handle always having to think about what I'm eating or what I'm not eating.  I think today is a perfect example.  Didn't pack a breakfast or lunch, even though I'm supposed to get myself on track.  Really?  Now what, go hungry all day?  Go home for lunch with the kids there?  Try my luck choosing the right things from the cafe?  I don't know which is the lesser of all the evils.  I am leaning towards the cafe and choosing an overpriced salad.  Makes me mad simply because I already paid for vegetables and salad fixings at home.  Arrgghhh.  Also, it's only 10am and all I can think about is eating and how to concentrate on NOT eating.  Obviously not having any real food in front of me makes it some what easier. 

Ate a granola bar first along with the diet coke, and then had an oversized bowl of oatmeal with 2 packets of sugar.  AND in addition to that, I bought the supplements yesterday and I didn't even bring them with me today.  Why?  Am I already sabotaging my efforts?  I hope not.  My goal is to fit in my pants that I used to LOVE to wear when I had lost some weight.  I am pretty happy that my goal is something concrete and what I think is reasonable.  My concern is that I don't have a solid plan on how to make sure I CAN get there.  I really don't understand what to do other than what has worked in the past.  I don't really want to join weight watchers again as I don't want to spend the time going to the meetings and trying to feel invisible.  I am going to try the same plan on my own to see if I can make it work on my own without the meetings.  We'll see.  The cost is worth it, just not sure the time is really worth it.  Again, I'll see.  I started off well yesterday with both eating and exercising.  I will log the food I ate.  (Just did it on MyFitnessPal.com).  Kinda love the idea of being able to get it done so quickly.  I would like to get up and have a break but I'm afraid of what food I will start to crave. 

Here are the things I think I may be missing in my plan.  I think I have the food eating plan started correctly but I am struggling with the scheduling of exercise consistently each day.  I think ultimately, I will most likely need to change my work schedule slightly so I can get to the gym in the morning.  If I wait until the afternoon, I may not go.  I am concerned that I would find other things to do instead of exercising.  I will work through the details today to figure it out.  I can exercise at home or go to the gym each morning.  Either will work.  I seem to have had the best success with this in the past.  I also had success when I simply did very basic same same exercise each day.  I need to make sure I have the details for the eating plan for the week as well.  I will work on that today.

OK, so lunch was pretty good BUT not totally filling.  I'm bummed that I don't have more to eat with me like a huge amount of vegetables would be great right now.  AND it is not even noon yet.  I hope I didn't eat too early.  I was so hungry I hardly remember really eating it...  I wish I had....  Well I had grabbed a very small apple with my lunch and it really satisfied my hunger.  Kinda shocking.